Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Blue tee and the blues inside me

I won 2 passes to watch a newly released movie last week. Wore my best high heels and watched with Blue tee. hmm... it was nice.. felt safe. had an intellectual discussion beforehand, and i was asked, 'What do I really want to become? What are your plans after post-grad?' Sad to say, i do not know. i am always the kind of person who 'follow the flow'.... and blue tee said 'my flow is kinda slow', that i needed to find myself. There is always sacrifices that need to be made in order to achieve your dreams, but firstly, what are your dreams and how are you gonna achieve it?  Nevertheless, it was a great night out with burger as dinner.

inside me, there is a problem that is out of my control to settle. every family and ppl has problems...somehow...this i could only pray. Pray that things will be alright, pray that everything will be safe, pray that things will only improve, pray that I can have peace of mind, pray that i wont be scared to face it if needed, pray that everything will be okay. but me and God, is another complicated issue altogether..

I feel scared as I have to face it alone, I feel weak but I have to act strong,
I feel powerless but I have to be stern, I feel afraid every time it happens.


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