whispers in my mind

As direct as it sounded, I Miss You..... *pouts*
do you miss me as I do?
I just want a little more attention, a little more care and devotion.
sometimes i wish you will fight for me, instead of let time steer the direction of our path.

2338 hours

Wonderful tonight

Pabila jejari tengah sibuk menaip, tiba-tiba lagu Wonderful Tonight dimainkan di Lite FM. Lagu ini mempunyai rasa yang signifikan dalam diriku. Aku telah jatuh cinta pada kali pertama mendengar lagu ini apabila ku masih kecil dan budak lagi. Aku selalu mengidamkan Putera Charming aku akan menyanyikan atau memainkan lagu ini padaku pada masa depan. Ataupun sekadar slow dance dengan lagu ini pun jadilah. Memang jiwang dan romantik =)

Ku tersenyum menantikan suasana jiwang membuak-buak itu....

~Lagu pun tamat sudah~

Jam 1446

Bagaikan tiupan angin

Angin,
Angin berbuai sempoi,
Angin bertiup secara romantis,
Angin mendinginkan panas hati

Namun Angin,
Angin bertiup seperti tornado, tatkala,
Angin hilang sekelip mata,
Angin mengeringkan dan mengecutkan hati

Angin,
Engkau datang, Engkau pergi
Sesuka hati,
Tidak inginkah kau menjagai aku, melindungi aku?

Aku insan dibiar ditampar angin
Aku rela ditampar angin yang kekadang ada, kekadang tiada,
Aku rela dinodai tiupan angin
Aku rela dilukai angin tajam tidak beerti
Demi Cinta yang tiada kepastian.

Jam 1744

Tonguetied

I just finished watching glee season 3, better late then never =)
Everybody was Tonguetied admiring their champion trophy. After working for so hard, they deserved it.
I always felt I haven't put in enough, always so lazy.... So many results to analysed and do for the thesis. The thesis is now kinda empty with skeleton only. So many small small things to do...
Even though busy, i still long for ...
Mm....

Bee

after 2 years.....2012

So many things happened since CIVP(my last post). 2 years had passed. After CIVP, i got a job as a student counselor. Felt bored after few months of work and scout around for Masters opportunity. Entered a local university for Masters until now and today is the first day of my last semester!!! I can't believe it. I have to finish my bench work and write thesis and paper. oh my... so much to do, so little time...

Also, it has been a hard time for the past 2 months. Things that I did not expect to happen, happened. Things that i have been so comfortable and confident of, crashed me to pieces, even powdered my heart. I was at my lowest point of my life. Tears flew freely, with company of trusted family and friends. I can't hide my sadness. Even now, tears still flow whenever i thought of him.

I know things happened for a reason. Ah fei said God took away someone from me, he will give someone or something back to me. God Is very fair.

I need to focus on my research and thesis. Lab work that seem never ending, knowledge that seem never deep enough. Reading that never enough.. Lucky enough i have a bunch of labmates that support each other throughout our lab time =)