Recently I got a one month pass to my old gym for free! I was excited as it's free and I get to join Zumba!*i like to move it, move it... LOL It has been 2 years since I left this gym and going back there brought back lots of memories and past familiarity. You see, it was at this gym I learned and join all the classes from Body Combat, Body Pump, Zumba, Yoga, RPM, fast fit, aerobic dance and basic steps. It was also here I spent my time after a break up at that time. It brought back lots of negative emotions. The main class where I work my a$$ off, to push myself further in order to heal. The same washroom where I cried and quickly wiped away my tears so that people wouldn't notice. The same locker where I keep my things and also where I sit to read back old messages. I went for Zumba and Power Jump. Different instructors, different feelings and it doesn't feel good anymore. Something is wrong somewhere, I felt disturbed emotionally. Some classes are still being held at the same time, same day and same instructors. Even some of the regular members are still there albeit looked older. However, it doesn't pull me in into their class anymore.
After today's class, I've decided to just stop going to that gym anymore. The sense of familiarity is too intense and I've already moved on with my life. I do not want to go back to that negative state again. Happiness is My Choice.
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