Ed Sheeran - Photograph

The lyrics sums up all that I felt right now...It's a beautiful song and melody.


                                                       "Photograph"                                                      

Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home

Loving can heal
Loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know (know)
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of ya
And it's the only thing we take with us when we die

We keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Our hearts were never broken
Times forever frozen still

So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone

And if you hurt me
That's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go

Wait for me to come home [4x]

Oh you can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were 16
Next to your heartbeat
Where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul

And if you hurt me
Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go

When I'm away
I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost
Back on 6th street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
"Wait for me to come home."

cited from http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/edsheeran/photograph.html

Bravery in a cloudy night

I did something courageous a few days back. Something that I never do before and will never do again. To clear my mind, to clarify my direction and to know where I stand. It did not occur to me that I will tell him that night, as we chat and discuss along, I felt a strong urge to ask, I know I need to get it off my chest, if not I will miss the opportunity and not sure when I will be brave enough again. I don't want the attachment feeling sets in and I will fall even deeper for him. Even though uncomfortable, I blurted out, and dare not look at him, heart pounding as quick as it can.... and I told him the truth as I do not want to waste time wondering and hoping and dreaming about him.

Even though the outcome isn't as positive that I hope for, I am able to accept it. I felt relieved that I know the answer instead of several months or years later. I was feeling numb for a while until the next morning, went for body combat class, cried a lil, had a breakfast feast of dim sum and kopi ping and went to work. I was still not feeling that ok and booked my 2 girlfriends for the night.

He has all the characteristics that I like and I want in my husband-to-be. Someone that I admire, someone that I look up to, Someone who motivates, guides and pushes me, Someone who is interesting and we shared lots of laughter. Someone who can control me and I am willing to be submissive to. Am not sure whether he knows that I think highly of him. Probably, he felt I'm too good or he himself is not confident?

Earlier that day, I saw the quote 'If you never ask, the answer will always be no'. Probably this is also one of the reason why I'm so brave to ask. Besides, 2 Sagi friends of mine also had the same opinion.

Many people think that I'm a strong woman, which in fact I may look strong in the outside, but i'm as weak and meek in the inside. Deep inside I long for someone to love and be loved. Someone who wants me as much as I want him. Someone to get up with every morning..

My Ultimate Dreams

My One and Only.

Wondering when can I write a post with the above title for real. Instead of waiting for the day, I write it first so that it will come true. You have to always think about your dreams. You gotta dream big and always stand firm in believing your dreams will come true. Yes! It will!! *smiling*

Just always keep your dreams in mind, 
everything else will come later =) 

The above statement was sent by a friend to me. I've set my goals in a tiny little notebook but less that he knows, my ultimate goal, is him! He is my dreams!  From my first sight of him, I've drawn to him. It's chemistry right. Sometimes I feel he felt the same way too, but sometimes I feel it's good to be friends first. Aaah.... I felt so comfortable with him. I already felt that he is My One and Only Man.

Make you feel my love

The lyrics are apt, this song was played in church when I was feeling exactly like what Adele is singing. 

When the rain is blowing in your face,
And the whole world is on your case,
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love.

When the evening shadows and the stars appear,
And there is no one there to dry your tears,
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love.

I know you haven't made your mind up yet,
But I will never do you wrong.
I've known it from the moment that we met,
No doubt in my mind where you belong.

I'd go hungry; I'd go black and blue,
And I'd go crawling down the avenue.
No, there's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love.

The storms are raging on the rolling sea
And on the highway of regret.
The winds of change are blowing wild and free,
You ain't seen nothing like me yet.

I could make you happy, make your dreams come true.
Nothing that I wouldn't do.
Go to the ends of the Earth for you,
To make you feel my love
To make you feel my love

Coffee and Potato Bread

"Wah...have to open door for you!"
That was what he said when I entered his car.
I wasn't completely sure that that was his car as it was the first time he came to pick me from my office for lunch. It was our second meeting.

The first was at a cafe where we were waiting for each other inside the cafe but he was seated inside, while I waited for him at a seat near the entrance. We shared a chocolate cake during the first meeting. How odd was that. Well, first impression was good. He's so handsome (exclaimed my lil heart!) As I already ordered and paid for my cappuccino, I told the cashier to send it over to the other table. He is tall, he is dark and he is handsome =)))))))))))))) We started chatting and it went on and on until the cafe is closing. Then we had to leave, he walked me to my car (he said "I'm a gentleman".......lol) and we said Good bye.

2 days later he asked me whether I'm free for lunch as he was nearby. So, I entered his car. We decided to eat at a Punjabi restaurant as I said there's a capati place near my office. I recommended 'potato bread', a kind of capati but with potato stuffing. Its an intermediate between capati and naan. He loves it! He truly enjoyed the lunch.

He asked 'Why suddenly so quiet'....... that's me, haha......
Sometimes I talk a lot, Sometimes I just stay quiet.

While waiting for our potato bread, he took a piece of banana cake from the counter. Peeled it into half and gave it to me. It was so good! Not too sweet, home made and it reminisced the school days where we bring our food for recess time.

While we head to the counter to pay, he said  "Can I buy you lunch?"
I nodded (smiling in my heart).

He sent me back to my office and chatted a bit more. We kinda clicked =))
He joked  "You like dark one right?

(Yeah, I do....*smiling like a crazy woman*)

Sha-sha

Well, life is like a roller coaster, sometimes you are up, sometimes you are down. Same goes to happy times, they are temporary but it will happen again. I'm grateful to be able to experience many many happy moments, picking up the positives from each person, suppressing the negatives. But I only want to share all the ups and downs with one special someone. 

I do not know whether this person already appear, 

I hope he does. I hope it's him. 

Albeit knowing the chances are slim. 

I still hope its prince.

Sugar make things sweet, 

You sweeten up my life,

With 10 days sugar-free diet

Race isn't an issue, 

I have different taste and so do you, 

I want you #you