Storm-proof Life

I've been following CCF online for about two months now since I came back from Manila. It feels like I'm attending the church over there and when the Pastor speaks, it feels like he is speaking right in front of me. It's always in me, that I don't feel enlighten to follow any one religion. I've been exposed to many religions, be it Buddhism, Hinduism, Christianity and even at some point in time, I even would consider Islam if my fate is with a Muslim man. I just leave the religion option open, as if I'm waiting for the right man with the right religion appears to guide me. It shouldn't be this way. It is about my relationship with God, not depending on someone to make this relationship works.

 Anyway, this time around, I try my best to follow the live streaming of the Sunday service. Sometimes I leave it on, just let it play and listening from time to time. Sometimes, I follow but felt sleepy. Sometimes, I listened while multitasking. Hmmm......when sayang ask me what's the take on message each time? I couldn't answer. I have no answer and I do not know what am I doing all these while. Sayang's answer was simple, 'You follow but you're not focusing. You felt sleepy because you're not focusing'. I sing the songs, but without wholeheartedly immersing myself in the meaning of worshiping. So, yesterday I focus while following the 0900 hours service. 

The take on message was we are the disciples. We are the messenger. Not the source. If God is true, it is of infinite importance; not moderately important. God cannot be moderately important.

Are we taking God for granted? Do we pray to God only to solve your problems? Are you angry when your problems are not solve? We are not promised a storm-free life when you believe in Jesus, rather a storm-proof life. 

I hope to be able to pen down more take on message each time I follow the sermon.

Vulnerable Cloud

Sayang, I miss you so much!!!!!!!!! I know I've said this many times but I wanna say it again, I miss you sayang.... I can't wait to be in your arms again, cuddles and hugs. To be truly open and vulnerable to someone takes a lot of courage. I've always been courageous, and will be for this one last time. My mended heart is strong for this soaring love, OUR LOVE.